"Get busy livin' or Get busy Dyin'"

That is the quote from the movie "Shawshank Redemption" and it has been on my mind the last few days.

Now in my 40's, I realize I am at least halfway through and there is so much I still would like to do. And, I also find that married life tends to "slow" me down. Sometimes this is good, but I also think that sometimes I would like to move a little bit quicker. I know my wife thrives on routine and having dinner at a certain time, going to bed at a certain time, taking naps on the weekends are important to her.

But, every now and then I like the adrenaline rush even if it is somewhat contrived. As a friend said the other day, he often would try to time arrving at an airplane just as they were getting ready to shut the doors. Now, he does not need the added stress with kids and a wife.

I still like the adrenaline flow and did not realize how much I was missing it until recently. For various reasons, I ended up having to work until 2 AM and the get up at 6 AM to go to work. It was fun. I know it sounds sick, but I liked the intensity and the feeling that I was accomplishing a lot.

I know there is a balance. I married my wife because who she is and therefore getting into her routine is important. But she also married me and she is going to have to allow me to be me sometimes.